missing u badly..

today is my father's birthday
i was on my way going home by bus
it's rainy outside and i'm listened to avril's song - when ur gone
i looked at the window
i closed my eyes and the flashback started..

i see ur face,, i see ur smile,, i see u,,

i remember the day when i saw u at the airport
u were so sick and thin
u sat in a wheel chair
i began to cry,, i'm so happy that i can see u again,,
but it's hurting me when i saw u in a wheel chair
u looked at me,, n u see me crying
u asked the protector if i could go inside n hug u
but the the protector didn't allow me..
i knew that u miss me too

day by day,, that cancer gnawed u more n more
last month i saw u walk
last week i saw u sit in bed
yesterday i saw u lay in bed

i still remember the day when suddenly my friend's father came to pick me up
i don't know what happen
but i realized something happened today
i started crying.. he didn't told me anything
when i reached home, there's an ambulance outside
still, i couldn't imagine what happen

i walked into my house
there's a lot of people there
still, i don't know what happen
then i saw my family, they told me that she has gone

she has gone, but she will not be forgotten

if only i could turn back time,
i'll say "i love u" million times
i'll kiss ur cheek million times
i'll hug u million times

i'm so sorry for the thing that i've done
i love u,, and that's all i want u to know
u r the one, the only and the most precious person in my life
mother,, I LOVE U..

i dedicated this post 4 my mom.. ;)