bye-bye 2009,, welcome 2010 ^^

Another fresh new year is here..
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest..
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!

William Arthur Ward

how could u??

how could u do that to me?
don't u know u hurt me so much?
did i do a huge mistakes?
so that u can do that to me?

it's only 2 days b4 x'mas..
n i feel like my heart has been torn out,,
stabbed a few times,,

there's so much questions in my mind..
my faith in u was fading..
n my tears fall again..

my daddy is my hero =)

my hero is my daddy..
why?? there are so many reason 4 that question..
n i'd love to answer that question =)

my daddy is a good man 4 not spoiling me in buying me whatever i want when i was a kid..
although he still buy me some things that i want
when i was a kid, he often play wid me coz he is so busy..
but still, he is a very loving father..
there's so much in life that I have learned from him
he was in many ways a very simple man,,
but he had strong values that he passed down by example to his children..
he never gives up n he always do d best 4 his family
he's very funny when he played smack down wid my brother (i always smile everytime i remember that XD)

one thing is for sure,
u'll always there 4 me when i needed someone to rely on
Dad, u'll always be my hero

i dedicated this post 4 my dad @ home.. miss u dad.. can't wait to see u on Friday =)

missing u badly..

today is my father's birthday
i was on my way going home by bus
it's rainy outside and i'm listened to avril's song - when ur gone
i looked at the window
i closed my eyes and the flashback started..

i see ur face,, i see ur smile,, i see u,,

i remember the day when i saw u at the airport
u were so sick and thin
u sat in a wheel chair
i began to cry,, i'm so happy that i can see u again,,
but it's hurting me when i saw u in a wheel chair
u looked at me,, n u see me crying
u asked the protector if i could go inside n hug u
but the the protector didn't allow me..
i knew that u miss me too

day by day,, that cancer gnawed u more n more
last month i saw u walk
last week i saw u sit in bed
yesterday i saw u lay in bed

i still remember the day when suddenly my friend's father came to pick me up
i don't know what happen
but i realized something happened today
i started crying.. he didn't told me anything
when i reached home, there's an ambulance outside
still, i couldn't imagine what happen

i walked into my house
there's a lot of people there
still, i don't know what happen
then i saw my family, they told me that she has gone

she has gone, but she will not be forgotten

if only i could turn back time,
i'll say "i love u" million times
i'll kiss ur cheek million times
i'll hug u million times

i'm so sorry for the thing that i've done
i love u,, and that's all i want u to know
u r the one, the only and the most precious person in my life
mother,, I LOVE U..

i dedicated this post 4 my mom.. ;)